I guess i should have known things weren't going to work between us the day i found you had written about a girl you could have married... and that person was definitely not me. We had talked about being together and you asked if i had to be married to be with some one.. i said no.. and i meant it.. we talked about commitment not needing a piece of paper or some silly rock on a finger.. we talked about knowing where home was ... we talked about being together and made future plans..
I should have just let you go when you took the job in California and left in January instead of being uncharacteristically optimistic about seeing you while you were out there .. and again the same feeling about seeing you more often once you got to grad school in the fall. I suppose this would have hurt less had i just let you go then.. at least it would have been clean ...at least i wouldn't have had to endure this break up over text.. at least i could have looked at you while you told me what was wrong with me..
We were both not with out fault.. I did some things I shouldn't have, but then again so did you . It made neither of us right for any of it. However, the difference is, I got over your injustice and you made a major case of mine. What is done, is done.. I cant change it. I can only hope that maybe you can change the way you look at me, but I am not uncharacteristically optimistic about this at all.
I have missed you so much these past few months my heart has ached.. and now. no reconciliation to make that ache subside.. only more hurt to enhance it..
I should have just let you go when you took the job in California and left in January instead of being uncharacteristically optimistic about seeing you while you were out there .. and again the same feeling about seeing you more often once you got to grad school in the fall. I suppose this would have hurt less had i just let you go then.. at least it would have been clean ...at least i wouldn't have had to endure this break up over text.. at least i could have looked at you while you told me what was wrong with me..
We were both not with out fault.. I did some things I shouldn't have, but then again so did you . It made neither of us right for any of it. However, the difference is, I got over your injustice and you made a major case of mine. What is done, is done.. I cant change it. I can only hope that maybe you can change the way you look at me, but I am not uncharacteristically optimistic about this at all.
I have missed you so much these past few months my heart has ached.. and now. no reconciliation to make that ache subside.. only more hurt to enhance it..
