Monday, February 09, 2009
the halo moon here tonight is gorgeous.. it doesnt happen often but the full moon seems to bring out the most beauty in the night.. the moon was so bright tonight i cast a shadow when i took the dogs out .. the air feels magickal especially since there was a halo tonight!!i went to work today .. it was kind of boring..it gave me alot of time to think about things i need to do at home.. things i need to do in my life.. and things i need to just get together finally now that i have only myself to be accountable for .. if that makes sense?i am finally at a point in my life where i dont feel the stress of other people's influence on how or why i make my decisions.. and on that note.. i feel and own my decsions wholly.. it doesnt mean they are all right.. but they are all mine and for me...at this moment...that means alot..i am making changes and persuing directions i dont think i would have ever thought possible just this time last year.. actually this time last year .. i didnt really think i was gonna make it through at all .. i was at one of my lowest points health wise that i have been in for quite some time.. i look back and see the steps i have taken in the past year and i am really amazed at myself.. things i thought would break me didnt.. things i thought wouldnt kind of did.. i know i am talking in riddles but the truth of it all is just for me.. i am tried of making excuses and saying i am sorry to people who in the long run dont really care at all anyway i think i am ready for even bigger things but for now i think i will settle on getting my house to the point it should have been years ago and i just couldnt seem to get it there.. that ismy goal for summer.. update my room.. get jessicas space completely finished.. get my craft space arranged .. and get my foyer.. and parlour finished up .. then i can start on the kitchen next year!!
Saturday, February 07, 2009
mother nature has been a whore lately ! serious.. at the beginning of the week we were at 6 degrees at night .. and today ? 66.. what the hell ? its january .. whatever..its been busy around here.. more cleaning purging storing and work .. we are almost done with the two rooms upstairs.. i will take pics when they are done.. i am ready to start wtih the downstairs as well .. my bedroom gets a freshening soon as well .. i am repainting and rearranging.. the colours is going to be a nice peachy brown or would that be browny peach? i dont know but i do like it!jessica being here has been good for me.. it makes me want better for the house and it makes me motivated to get things done.. and she is good company.. its been nice to have some one to talk to and i think she is enjoying having some one to talk to as well and bounce ideas off... i am so proud of her.. she only has one more semester at school.. then she graduates.. she went for an interview for the school paper and is looking for an internship for the summer.. all of these things will help her get a job once she gets out of school....this past couple months has been good to me actually .. i have gotten to reconnect with some old friends.. find a couple new ones and i feel i am branching out in ways i never thought possible.. i have big plans for the summer as well.. i have a few big ride trips planned and alot of small ones as well .. i hope to double my miles on my bike by the end of the summer ! so excited to be feeling well and up to all of this .. off to get more done for the day .. the dogs need washed and i need to scrub the bathroom!