Tuesday, February 28, 2006
today .. i hate people.. i was going to leave it at that .. but what i hate especially are people that have not taken one minute of their time to get to know me yet suddenly are experts on my behaviour.. to all of you like that FUCK YOU ... to every one else.. you know i love you .. back to myself in a few days i am sure..
Saturday, February 18, 2006
Smooth .. like Buttah
so does this mean i am creamy and smooth and nice like buttah .. or does it mean i am full of fat .. HA!! lol
Thursday, February 16, 2006
So Today ... I am a Lemming
ok ..i am a lemming today .. so go tell me what you think of me so i can cry when you say mean things ... hahahahahoh right HERE
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
ok i have to back track.. cause i have gotten sidetracked.. saturday .. picture it.. rainy .. dreary.. drove into fayetteville to meet up with Fruggs.. (Angela..) and teach her to use her drop spindle.. i told her it was really easy.. she didnt believe me.. til of course we got the stuff out and started .. and she was like.. omg .. this IS easy.. SEEEEEEEEEE.. LOL so i got to Barnes & Noble.. we had agreed to meet in the front where the coffee shop is.. and i will confess.. i had NO idea who was supposed to be meeting.. we had not talked .. we had not said this is what i would be wearing.. nothing.. i made an assumption she had seen a couple of my pictures and was SURE she would recognize me .. so i wasnt stressing too hard.. i got there .. got my coffee and got a table.. man that place was busy .. i sat down and ate my giant oatmeal raisin cookie and sipped my caramel macchiato(oh yeah i splurged.. it was starbucks!).. and waited.. watching.. hoping to be able to pick her out.. really it wasnt that hard.. thank alpaca.. she was carrying her spinning stuff in a clear plastic bag.. it HAD to be her.. how many ppl carry around a drop spindle and roving ?? i waved she came over i was stuffing my face.. we had THE best time... see.. we are laughing
and that is because .. we were trying to take the pic.. and umm .. i had not turned the camera on.. LOL.. DOH!(pssst deneen...look at my neck!!)so we spun for like an hour.. and then went on a yarn spree.. AC Moore.. Jo Ann's... Tuesday Morning.. Hobby Lobby.. i was trying to be good really .. i spent less than 50 dollars and got a good whack of stuff .. some of it isnt for me though.. so no show and tell just yet!anyway .. i was asking Angela how long she could be gone. she had left the baby with hubby.. and she was like oh .. however long i want.. wellllll....we were in HL.. and the phone rang.. it was 6.15!!!!! had not even noticed the time.. where had it gone? seriously it was just 3.15 a minute ago.. LOL.. anyway .. i took her back to her car and we said bye and i have an invite to her knitting guild meeting .. HOW FUN!!i had a great day .. thanks Angela!!
Saturday, February 11, 2006
i want to thank every one who has jumped in already and helped me out.. dont worry there is still plenty of time and before the event I will put up monthly reminders about it.. i have a detailed outline of their 24 week training program .. i am of course startign early because i need to be in the best shape possible for this.. and you know if i lose a little weight along the way .. well then.. BONUS for me.. i guess i want to tell you all why i feel compelled to do this .. and its not like i even felt like i had a choice.. I lost an aunt when i was 12 from this..my fathers sister.. she was only 38.. and lets remember i just turned 36 .. so i just cant imagine losing my life at this point.. my mother has had 3 lumpectomies so far.. her sister has lost both breasts.. my grandmother had to have one removed as well .. she is not longer with us.. she died from being old.. but still had to go thru this .. I have another aunt on my fathers side that has had one breast removed as well .. so you can figure and imagine what the odds are for me and my sisters .. here we are this past summer .. hanging out at starbucks.. me trying to teach them to knit.. you know i have been thru the cancer thing (not breast).. i dont wish it on any one... so this really wasnt a choice for me i am walking because i simply MUST..
Thursday, February 09, 2006
yes.. this is really huge.. i wouldnt have said it .. if it wasnt... i am not that kind of person .. i wouldnt try to draw attention to myself if I didnt have something VERY important to say ... and it IS important.. and I am hoping it will be to all of you my dear readers .....I took a huge step today .. I have signed up for The 3 Day in Atlanta on October 20 to the 22nd.. This is an event where I have to raise a bunch of money .. for the honour to walk 60 miles for Breast Cancer research ..I have to do the hard part.. I am asking you to do the easier part.. I need your help to raise the $2,200 dollars I need to walk .. I would absolutely love to give them $5,000 .. I think its an obtainable goal.. but would be happy with the $2,200So.. I put a button in my side bar.. I created a separate paypal account if you would like to donate that way .. jsut click the button and go.. if you would like to send check or money order please email me for an address.. If you would like to send traffic my way ..
please ask I will send you a button for your blog I added the button for you to steal on my side bar .. in the section that says "Things I Do "..please feel free to take and upload to your server and use it on your blog!! .. just by doing that would be a great help!!
Edited to Add...... I forgot to mention.. I will be matching funds up to $5,000 .. so I challenge you to help me make the biggest donation I can .. it would so rock to be able to hand them 10K for this deal.. as of right now .. i have $1033 dollars so far!
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Heavy Cream is Evil
so i hate to admit it .. but you know .. i have been gaining a little weight.. and i just couldnt figure out how it was happening.. my eating habits had not changed that much .. that is when it hit me like a ton of bricks .... .one big DOH! i had started using heavy cream in my espresso.. no big deal right.. its ok to splurge every now and then.. holy shit.. i read the label.. 1 serving is a table spoon.. thats right a TABLE SPOON.. and you can guess in my huge latte cup i was pouring 4 shots of espresso and not one table spoon of cream .. more like a half a cup.. EIGHT table spoons.. so do you need a break down? .. i am gonna give it to you anyway one table spoon heavy cream = 5 grams of fat and 50 calories.. let me walk you thru the rest of the math.. one half cup =8 table spoons= 40 grams of fat and 400 calories.. can we say WAKE UP CALL??!!i was drinking more fat in one coffee than you should even have in a days time.. and there were some days i was doing it twice.. no fucking wonder i gained weigh .. sheesh.. wake up and smell the coffee !! .. so.. its fat free half and half for me.. and you know its not half bad .. that pun was but the stuff isnt .. and you know my first week of watching my fat intake and eliminating the cream .. 9 pounds lost .. NINE.. how crazy!!
Thursday, February 02, 2006
I think she Finally got it
so my mom calls me yesterday .. and tells me .. "oh.. i have to go have a lumpectomy tomorrow".. i was like "ok" .. this is her third she is pretty calm about it any more(and we wont go into the odds of this happening to me and my sisters) but says .. "its not the lump but the mass under it they are worried about.. i am on anitbiotics already.." the part about this that alarms me ever so slightly .. is .. she just went to the doc THAT DAY.. and they got her right in to take care of this.. sometimes that speaks more than what they are really telling you .. so today .. i was on pins and needles waiting for my mom to call or email or whatever to let me know something.. and you know .. it was kind of nice.. i know that sounds completely strange coming from me .. nice to worry but if you really know how my relationship with my mother works.. you would know.. i usually get a call AFTER every thing has happened to let me know OR here is how its gone mostly in the past .. i get to know at the holidays.. like this has happened and say Easter we all get together.. i would find out then cause some one would mention it and i would go " well when did this happen" and the answer would be "february" and of course i would have to say "well thanks for letting me know at easter " in my sarcastic way .. and i have always hated that .. being the last to know.. or getting second hand info from my sisters like you know i wasnt important enough to inform.. it was nice to get the call from my mom and actually be included in the process for a change.. and really this has nothing to do with me being so far away .. the way things have been in the past are exactly as i described and my mother lives only 20 minutes from me (when i am home) .. to say our relationship was "strained" in an understatement..i am not exaggerating when i say i have owned my house for 8 years now and my mother has been there exactly three times.. i am quite certain this is because i dont live the life she thinks i should have but i think maybe just maybe after 36 years she might have moved past it .. so finally after all these years i feel like i am an actual person in the family instead of the "oh by the way " and it feels good.. i wont say things are all rosy now.. they arent.. but at least my mom is making some sort of effort and i do acknowlege that and will try to be more receptive .. and maybe even make a better effort myself.. i used to .. it just got really old being the only one trying .. SO .. she has bucked the system for a long time .. and not wanted to learn how to use email.. so you can imagine my surprise when i get an email from my mom tonight.. at first i was like "who in the hell is Nancy H____" and then it was like a light went on .. i was like OMG mom figured out email.. how strange LOL.. i forget sometimes she doesnt have the same last name LOL.. so anyway .. i got the note.. every thing is benign .. and the mass.. was just some infected tissue.. so the antibiotics should knock it out .. she gets to have the rest of the week off .. so she better take it easy .. i will be calling to check..